For the past 12 years, I have often spoken of the pain of letting go of a child from this world. In all honesty it is something that never quite leaves you. This morning I want to reflect more on the beauty of trusting Christ in the ashes. The 12 year anniversary of Zach’s departure from this world is tomorrow. In our lives we have happy dates we remember like our wedding day and the dates of the birth of our children. Then there are those sad days like the anniversary of what I am writing. For many years I focused on looking forward to heaven so I could see Zach again. That is not a bad hope however it is very much an imcomplete one.
I have grown quite a bit in these past years and I am so grateful that the Lord has allowed me to live long enough to come into understanding that the best thing about heaven is He and He alone. Our lives are temporary, a vapor. It is difficult to conceive of such a God that would love us so much that He would give His only son so we could spend eternity with Him. That knowledge is what fuels my soul. That is what drives me. That is what brings me to joy, to imagine being in the presence of Almighty God who created the world and everything within it. Who always was and always will be. Who is justified because He has no sin. Who loves and is also holy. If you are going through something that feels really challenging in your life, know that God is real. He is on the throne and He knows your condition. Trust in Him. Call on Him. Ask Him. To God is the glory in all things!