The parable of the sower has always intriqued me. I believe it explains perfectly why some people fall away from Christ and it also explains why some never come to that point of accepting grace. It is so very important to be mindful of which type of seed are each of us going to be. The part that describes the seed falling among the thorns and the thorns choke out the seed can too closely resember each of us. Receiving a cancer diagnosis or experiencing the death of a child can really test us in that area. Blessedly and through grace alone, God carried me through each of us so I could rest completely in knowing that His perfect plan was still being woven and perfected in my life. He absolutely carried me through both.
It is eternity that matters above all us. This life is going to be difficult. There will be times of joy. There is afterall a time of sorrow and a time of joy. Heaven will not be a place of sorrow. Revelation states specifically there will be no more tears. I cannot express enough how much that carried me and filled me with hope the weeks and months after my son’s death. Please let it be enough for you. Let it fill you and give you hope as well as rest.